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Monday, January 2, 2012

It will get better

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 PEOPLE :) A year has passed by again! With 2011 having reached its finale, its time for some self-reflections since I've the time to do so now. I reckon it is gonna be another lengthy post..

2011 a good year for me? I doubt so honestly. Although it's been a year of great experience - got to discover many new things, however yet at the same time, it's been a year where opportunities were forgone, friendships were fading, problems in family matters, etc.. It was a rather exceptionally emotional journey I'd say, and I just can't help it but feels so sad thinking back on those stuffs.

Perhaps one of the greatest opportunity lost was to give up running for captaincy of the polo team. Nonetheless, I'm thankful for Seet and the rest of the seniors for nominating me for the position. Still remembered I couldn't believe myself when I received the message from Seet, and I thought I was dreaming! For a moment I even thought that it was sent to the wrong recipient. Hahah! At least this nomination serves as an accreditation for me in the team. However, being clear of my priorities and also my incapability to juggle schoolwork with extra-curriculum activities well, I know I'm definitely not up to it for this position. This was exactly proven in my absence from training ever since IVP ended in end January. Then again, I doesn't like taking up leadership roles; although I know I should be stepping out of my comfort zone. A good opportunity lost? I'm still not sure of myself either till today... Nonetheless, I've also began to be less actively involved in this sport even after the semester has ended, as I began to occupy myself spending enjoyable times with my friends and loved ones. Is it all worth it?
The saying that friends come and go in our lives is incredibly too true, for different groups of friends had been an important part in the different milestones of my life. Perhaps fading friendships are an inevitable casualty of time, and maybe I shouldn't place too much expectations in friendships so that I wouldn't get so disappointed in the end. Afterall, friendships would just become much more dull and plain as time goes by if one doesn't make the effort to fork out quality time to maintain the friendship. I'm just so disappointed and upset over some friendships when people just literally ignored my texts when I'm trying hard to plan some meet-up sessions, and to date I've totally given up as I'm tired of all those dramas. I know true friendships will survive the test of time. However, at times I wish I can be greedy and keep all those friendships dearly with me...
And perhaps, 2011 was the year when my family problems was at its worst thus far. Still remembered that fateful night after my wisdom tooth surgery when some things just happened. It was probably the most hurtful words I've ever received, so much so that I cried to sleep, and of course tinged with some hard feelings. And then there was an episode of cold war at home a few months back, and for a moment I really did hate my family so much that I don't even feel like going home, and thinking I would be better off somewhere where nobody can find me. However, I'm glad everything's fine now :)
And for some things that happened, I am actually still feeling some sadness whenever I come to think of it or when emo songs started playing in my ipod. Letting go and trying to leave the past behind had never been as tough as this before. I hope I get through this, because I know it isn't worth getting myself so upset when there's so much more things for me to enjoy and experience in the world out there. People says that time will heal everything, so when will that day arrives for me? I hope it gets better this year...

Okay, sometimes I really hope I wouldn't have such good memory to be able to remember things so specifically so that I can stop looking back to the past and making myself so sad in the end. Life's too short to have regrets.

Forgetting about the negativities, I've certainly learnt and experienced a great deal of things in the different facets of life. Perhaps most fulfilling was the work experience over at Civil Service College during the summer holidays. I've really learnt so much about the business world during the short 2 months there, and slowly I started to assimilate into the environment. My colleagues there were awesome, and I actually couldn't bear to leave on the last day of work :( I'm glad I have great colleagues in my Customer relations team - Pauline, Andrew, Claudia, Kenny & Angela! It was probably the best work experience for me there at CSC, for the past experiences had been rather crappy. And not forgetting my great buddies there - Akhmad and Jun De; we certainly had so much fun together!

And somehow or rather, an interest in photography struck me over the holidays, and I finally got for myself a DSLR. I'm still learning the ropes now, and hopefully this interest would continue to stay with me. I look forward to the future to travel out of Singapore and taking pretty pictures of the world out there :) :) Yes, if everything goes on smoothly for my exchange administration procedures, the next stop would be the USA!!
Having said that, I'm glad that I've given a shot last semester for the application of the exchange programme, and surprisingly I was allocated a place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill which was my first choice PU :) It was almost like a dream come true for me because places were so limited, and I'm competing with other students who were so much more outstanding - there were china scholars, MOE scholars and teaching award recipients, etc... In comparison to them, I've really nothing much to sell and stand out from the crowd.

Okay, and I still remembered my virgin Wavehouse experience at Sentosa with Bestie and Carmen, and I really wants to go back there again. Surfing is really such a cool sport, but such a pity we can't really pursue it in SG here. Bestieeeee shall we hit the wavehouse again soon? And I'm missing you sooooo much!! Quite a pity I didn't had the chance to head there and surf during the December holiday :(

Hmmm, probably one thing that made me very happy last year was the whole new level of friendships forged between Kaye, Terence, Shawn, Jeremy, and I. Life can really be quite amazing at times, and it is rather incredulous how close we can get in just a matter of a month! I really hope these friendships we have forged will continue to stay, because I really cherish each one of you people :) Kaye, I'm really glad I have you, for you had been there for me in my ups and downs!
Honestly, I really looked forward to every outings that we had :) The BKK trip back in December was awesome, and it was my first time traveling out of Singapore with friends (excluding training trips). Such a pity that Terence is in London now, but we certainly have not forgotten you Ter!! And now Shawn is leaving for HK in the upcoming semester too :( Can't wait for the summer holidays again when everyone's back!!! :(
Of course, I'm so glad that the chemistry peeps had somehow got closer during the last semester! It really made me look forward to attending lectures with you guys everyday, and it really made my uni life much more fun now!! :) :)
And not forgetting Ying Lin too! :) It's amazing how we met through our job at the Singapore Airshow 2 years back, and somehow we always have so much in common to share and talk about. I'm happy that both of us are always putting in the effort to keep the friendship going, and I believed it's getting stronger :) I hope we can continue to get even closer this year and the years beyond!

Okay, I think my brain is probably tired because I can't think of what to say all of a sudden and it is 3.30am now. Guess I shall update this post again another day when I know what else I wish to say. Can't believed I took 3 hours to think and type all these! But anyways, I'm not gonna have any new year resolutions as it doesn't work out 99% of the time. I'm just hoping that life would remain as simple as it is this new year, hoping that I will survive through the tough upcoming semester, my SEP administration stuffs to go on smoothly and hopefully I won't be bringing too much sadness that I've into this new year. Time to leave the past behind I guess...

2012 - Travel more, explore more. I hope.

the great escape .
Profile CLARE LIM :) 19th Oct '91 • Lefty • Libra Water Polo (: Exits Allan Brenda Cai Ling Carmen Catherine Ernest Shawn Shufen Wei shan Ying Lin Archives October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 January 2013 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Monday, January 2, 2012 It will get better HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 PEOPLE :) A year has passed by again! With 2011 having reached its finale, its time for some self-reflections since I've the time to do so now. I reckon it is gonna be another lengthy post.. 2011 a good year for me? I doubt so honestly. Although it's been a year of great experience - got to discover many new things, however yet at the same time, it's been a year where opportunities were forgone, friendships were fading, problems in family matters, etc.. It was a rather exceptionally emotional journey I'd say, and I just can't help it but feels so sad thinking back on those stuffs. Perhaps one of the greatest opportunity lost was to give up running for captaincy of the polo team. Nonetheless, I'm thankful for Seet and the rest of the seniors for nominating me for the position. Still remembered I couldn't believe myself when I received the message from Seet, and I thought I was dreaming! For a moment I even thought that it was sent to the wrong recipient. Hahah! At least this nomination serves as an accreditation for me in the team. However, being clear of my priorities and also my incapability to juggle schoolwork with extra-curriculum activities well, I know I'm definitely not up to it for this position. This was exactly proven in my absence from training ever since IVP ended in end January. Then again, I doesn't like taking up leadership roles; although I know I should be stepping out of my comfort zone. A good opportunity lost? I'm still not sure of myself either till today... Nonetheless, I've also began to be less actively involved in this sport even after the semester has ended, as I began to occupy myself spending enjoyable times with my friends and loved ones. Is it all worth it? The saying that friends come and go in our lives is incredibly too true, for different groups of friends had been an important part in the different milestones of my life. Perhaps fading friendships are an inevitable casualty of time, and maybe I shouldn't place too much expectations in friendships so that I wouldn't get so disappointed in the end. Afterall, friendships would just become much more dull and plain as time goes by if one doesn't make the effort to fork out quality time to maintain the friendship. I'm just so disappointed and upset over some friendships when people just literally ignored my texts when I'm trying hard to plan some meet-up sessions, and to date I've totally given up as I'm tired of all those dramas. I know true friendships will survive the test of time. However, at times I wish I can be greedy and keep all those friendships dearly with me... And perhaps, 2011 was the year when my family problems was at its worst thus far. Still remembered that fateful night after my wisdom tooth surgery when some things just happened. It was probably the most hurtful words I've ever received, so much so that I cried to sleep, and of course tinged with some hard feelings. And then there was an episode of cold war at home a few months back, and for a moment I really did hate my family so much that I don't even feel like going home, and thinking I would be better off somewhere where nobody can find me. However, I'm glad everything's fine now :) And for some things that happened, I am actually still feeling some sadness whenever I come to think of it or when emo songs started playing in my ipod. Letting go and trying to leave the past behind had never been as tough as this before. I hope I get through this, because I know it isn't worth getting myself so upset when there's so much more things for me to enjoy and experience in the world out there. People says that time will heal everything, so when will that day arrives for me? I hope it gets better this year... Okay, sometimes I really hope I wouldn't have such good memory to be able to remember things so specifically so that I can stop looking back to the past and making myself so sad in the end. Life's too short to have regrets. Forgetting about the negativities, I've certainly learnt and experienced a great deal of things in the different facets of life. Perhaps most fulfilling was the work experience over at Civil Service College during the summer holidays. I've really learnt so much about the business world during the short 2 months there, and slowly I started to assimilate into the environment. My colleagues there were awesome, and I actually couldn't bear to leave on the last day of work :( I'm glad I have great colleagues in my Customer relations team - Pauline, Andrew, Claudia, Kenny & Angela! It was probably the best work experience for me there at CSC, for the past experiences had been rather crappy. And not forgetting my great buddies there - Akhmad and Jun De; we certainly had so much fun together! And somehow or rather, an interest in photography struck me over the holidays, and I finally got for myself a DSLR. I'm still learning the ropes now, and hopefully this interest would continue to stay with me. I look forward to the future to travel out of Singapore and taking pretty pictures of the world out there :) :) Yes, if everything goes on smoothly for my exchange administration procedures, the next stop would be the USA!! Having said that, I'm glad that I've given a shot last semester for the application of the exchange programme, and surprisingly I was allocated a place at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill which was my first choice PU :) It was almost like a dream come true for me because places were so limited, and I'm competing with other students who were so much more outstanding - there were china scholars, MOE scholars and teaching award recipients, etc... In comparison to them, I've really nothing much to sell and stand out from the crowd. Okay, and I still remembered my virgin Wavehouse experience at Sentosa with Bestie and Carmen, and I really wants to go back there again. Surfing is really such a cool sport, but such a pity we can't really pursue it in SG here. Bestieeeee shall we hit the wavehouse again soon? And I'm missing you sooooo much!! Quite a pity I didn't had the chance to head there and surf during the December holiday :( Hmmm, probably one thing that made me very happy last year was the whole new level of friendships forged between Kaye, Terence, Shawn, Jeremy, and I. Life can really be quite amazing at times, and it is rather incredulous how close we can get in just a matter of a month! I really hope these friendships we have forged will continue to stay, because I really cherish each one of you people :) Kaye, I'm really glad I have you, for you had been there for me in my ups and downs! Honestly, I really looked forward to every outings that we had :) The BKK trip back in December was awesome, and it was my first time traveling out of Singapore with friends (excluding training trips). Such a pity that Terence is in London now, but we certainly have not forgotten you Ter!! And now Shawn is leaving for HK in the upcoming semester too :( Can't wait for the summer holidays again when everyone's back!!! :( Of course, I'm so glad that the chemistry peeps had somehow got closer during the last semester! It really made me look forward to attending lectures with you guys everyday, and it really made my uni life much more fun now!! :) :) And not forgetting Ying Lin too! :) It's amazing how we met through our job at the Singapore Airshow 2 years back, and somehow we always have so much in common to share and talk about. I'm happy that both of us are always putting in the effort to keep the friendship going, and I believed it's getting stronger :) I hope we can continue to get even closer this year and the years beyond! Okay, I think my brain is probably tired because I can't think of what to say all of a sudden and it is 3.30am now. Guess I shall update this post again another day when I know what else I wish to say. Can't believed I took 3 hours to think and type all these! But anyways, I'm not gonna have any new year resolutions as it doesn't work out 99% of the time. I'm just hoping that life would remain as simple as it is this new year, hoping that I will survive through the tough upcoming semester, my SEP administration stuffs to go on smoothly and hopefully I won't be bringing too much sadness that I've into this new year. Time to leave the past behind I guess... 2012 - Travel more, explore more. I hope.