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Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Unfounded fears

Okay, this morning was the result release of Semester 1 results. Seeing all those status updates on newsfeed posted on facebook/twitter the night before, I can't help it but start to feel sooooo nervous. And this morning with the SMS received at 7am which woke me up so successfully, my heart was palpitating so badly but I was forcing myself to go back to sleep with the intention to view the message only in the afternoon. Eventually, I couldn't take the suspense anymore, pluck up my courage and my eyes peered on the screen. Okay, at least I think I did better than expected, and results this time round was the best among the 3 semesters gone through thus far. Kind of made my day, but I'm still not there yet for the personal goal I've set for myself. Not sure if it can be done which ultimately determines whether I'll choose to take honors year or not as I've only 2 semesters left to achieve that aim, discounting the 1 semester where I'd be on exchange and hence my CAP would be put on freeze.

Speaking of SEP, I've emailed them regarding my module mappings as all my core modules are still under pending status now. Kind of pissed with their efficiency when they replied saying it would be updated only in Jan/Feb'12 due to some circumstances -.- Like seriously..... & now I'm at lost whether to take 4 cores the coming semester, and CORS bidding is a week from now. Headache man..

I remembered during the recess week, I was constantly reflecting and asking myself why am I working myself so hard for exams when usually I don't reap what I've sowed. Wanted to blog about this at that point time, but haven't had the time to do so until now after my recollection on this.
Still remembered my primary school days which was rather havoc, had been playing too much and I really didn't do any work at all. Guess many of my friends wouldn't have believed that all my homework back then were all copied ones. Because of my playfulness, I didn't established a good foundation in my languages, and thus it suck so badly. Results were so bad that my teachers had to call up my parents, and nearly couldn't make it into the EM2 stream. And of course, my PSLE results were rather crappy and couldn't get me anywhere other than a normal neighborhood school. Thinking back, I really regretted for having wasted the 6 years back then.
And in secondary school, I finally achieved something good in my academics, something that my parents could be proud of. Perhaps it was really a gift from God to motivate me to study hard from there. And the feeling of receiving that plaque on stage was beyond describable, a moment I can never forget. Then again, I doesn't feel good studying in a neighborhood school, an environment with gangsters and bullies with their crude languages and actions. That was when I made a pact to myself that I will work hard and get into one of the top 10 Junior Colleges.
Yes, I made it and achieved my aim, although SAJC wasn't my dream school. However, I really love the environment back in SAJC, although I was quite intimidated when I first step into the school. It was more of a culture shock I would say, seeing almost all of the students don in prestigious school uniforms, like SJI; Cedar Girls; Cresent Girls, just too many to be mentioned. I began to question myself if I can survive through all those competitiveness, and also if I can assimilate into the new environment. In fact, I was having difficulty and it actually took me quite some time to adjust to an environment that communicates in English - afterall I'd been communicating in Mandarin back in sec school for the 4 years there.
Of course, life isn't all smooth sailing. I didn't really do well for my A'Levels, and thus I couldn't get into my dream course (Chemical Engineering/Maritime Studies). Making a decision on which course to pursue was therefore a very tough one for me then. Honestly, I've no idea how things would turn out when I graduate, for I'm still uncertain of pursuing a Science degree till now. However, my current thinking is to take one step at a time for now, trying my best to get some good CAP; enjoying my University life and making the best out of it, and hopefully to graduate with a decent degree. Afterall, though I understand that some times results may not equate to hard work, however the feeling is just so great upon receiving a good results knowing the amount of hard work you put into it. Isn't it?

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